The Bestest Girl

My life as best as I know it… personal & professional

Bumper to Bumper May 19, 2011

Filed under: Life — sephrahosein @ 19:01

I got stuck in a total of 3 hours of traffic today… Took a break from the traffic and stopped off at a mall in central… I really really really needed to pee!! Plus I was starving to death and was in desperate need of breakfast. So after my much appreciated break I was back on the road again, in traffic of course but I was not upset or mad. I was actually in a good mood. I got in the office at 10:00 am but it was a great morning…

Sometimes I forget that I am actually the only one who can control my emotions and that whatever affects me, be it positively or negatively, affects me because I allow it. Being happy is simple. It’s a choice. Sometimes I forget that I have the option; after all I am human, but I’m glad I chose to be happy regardless of the traffic this morning because it made a big difference in how my day went… If only I could remember these things all the time! Now I’m not saying it’s as easy as pie, I mean choosing to be happy is easy, anyone can say “I choose to be happy”, but actually making the effort to be happy, that’s hard, it sure does take a lot of yourself to be happy. So I guess that would explain the down days… Maybe on my down days I’m too tired to make the effort to be happy… Ha.. Epiphany! Then again, why does it take no effort at all to be grumpy, depressed, all the negatives, but it takes hard work to be happy? hmm, food for thought..

 

Insufferable May 16, 2011

Filed under: Life — sephrahosein @ 15:34

My eyes are burning… Either due to lack of sleep or the jackass who decided to cut gypsum right outside the office door… I’m tending towards the latter. While I have no major allergies, some fine particles, depending on its nature, causes me to break out in hives if I’m exposed to it. Gypsum is on the list. I told ASSHOLE Vinnie (the so-called maintenance man here) about it but he ignored me. Oh well, I guess I could do with a couple days off if I do indeed break out in hives. I have so much work to do and while I’m trying to stick to progressive elaboration, it’s somehow not getting any better. This job of mine has reached beyond the point of insufferable. My work load is ridiculously high. So I’m on a one man strike… Well more like work to rule. I’m gonna quit at 4 pm (the time I’m taking to blog here is time I worked through lunch so I’m taking it back!). Wow, that’s half an hour away… seems like forever.

I’m gonna attempt to bake bread this afternoon, under the guidance of my mom of course, considering I know nothing  about baking bread. Anyways, it’s supposed to be a relaxing thing.. I enjoy cooking. It’s almost like a hobbie of mine. One day, when I get out of this shit hole I’ll open my dream restaurant…  ahh…

 

I am Who I am May 13, 2011

Filed under: Life — sephrahosein @ 00:27

Who am I? I am smart. I am funny in my own way, I have a sense of humour. I choose to laugh at certain things rather than get upset about it. I am generally a happy person. I prefer to be pleasant to other people. I do not judge others but rather try to understand them. We are all different and that’s what makes us all normal. What is “normal” anyway? If nobody’s normal then we’re all normal. I try to make everyone around me happy. I genuinely care for those who my spirit takes to.  How I treat people is very important to me regardless of how they treat me. It is in my blood to be nice to people. I believe in being humble and I am very big on manners and how I speak to other people. I am extremely empathetic and maybe this is why I try to be kind to others. I hate to see people sad or upset. I am not a saint. I am selfish at times. Although being good is a big part of who I am, I am sometimes bad. I stand up for myself when needed, I don’t fight all the battles that come my way. I just fight the ones that really matter. Some people see that as me being a pushover but I guess they don’t know me well enough to see that I am strong and I don’t allow people to use me. I take the time to get to know people. Not judging them or turning them away at first glance is why I take the time. Humans are such amazing creatures, you never know what they’ll pull out of themselves and it may be bad or even good. I am a nerd if being a nerd means finding pleasure in the simpler things in life or in a game of scrabble or simply expressing my awe at a rainbow. I am who I am and although most people try to change these things about me, try to make me “tough”, I know what I am about and I will not let petty things in life change who I am. We live in a harsh world, where is the love? If everyone cares only for their own selves, how then would we change the world? How would we make it a better place for us and our loved ones to live? God put us here to serve Him by serving man. I am grateful to Him that I see and understand this. And I wake up every morning thanking Him for His blessings and favors on me and most important of all, I thank Him for making me a blessing for someone.

 

Mother’s Day May 8, 2011

Filed under: Life — sephrahosein @ 09:41

Well it’s another mother’s day and some things I figure will never change. Like my mom’s attitude towards certain things. I’m not sure what kind of relationship to call ours but it’s definitely not close, neither is it estranged. Somewhere in the middle I guess. I don’t know what to make of it. All I know is that I possess several of the qualities that my mother has. Good and bad ones I think. I think one of my fears is that I will turn out to be exactly like her. I know I need to start thinking positively about it so that I don’t turn out exactly like her because sometimes you can actually see how miserable she really is. Even though we have our differences in opinions from time to time (as with everyone else), I actually feel sorry for her sometimes and part of me wishes to see her happy. After all, she is my mother.

 

One & Only April 28, 2011

Filed under: Life — sephrahosein @ 07:03

“One And Only” by Adele

You’ve been on my mind
I grow fonder every day,
lose myself in time just thinking of your face
God only knows why it’s taking me so long
to let my doubts go
You’re the only one that I want

I don’t know why I’m scared, I’ve been here before
Every feeling, every word, I’ve imagined it all,
You never know if you never try to forget your past
And simply be mine

I dare you to let me be your, your one and only
Promise I’m worth it to hold in your arms
So come on and give me the chance

To prove that I’m the one who can
Walk that mile
Until the end starts

Have I been on your mind?
You hang on every word I say, lose yourself in time
At the mention of my name, will I ever know
How it feels to hold you close
And have you tell me which ever road I chose you’ll go

I don’t know why I’m scared, I’ve been here before
Every feeling every word, I’ve imagined it all,
You never know if you never tried to forgive your past
And simply be mine

I dare you to let me be your, your one and only
I promise I’m worthy to hold in your arms
So come on and give me the chance

To prove that I’m the one who can
Walk that mile
Until the end starts

I know it ain’t easy
Giving up your heart
I know it ain’t easy
Giving up your heart

(Nobody’s perfect, trust me I’ve earned it)
I know it ain’t easy, giving up your heart
(Nobody’s perfect, trust me I’ve earned it)
I know it ain’t easy, giving up your heart

I know it ain’t easy
Giving up your heart

I dare you to let me be your, your one and only
I promise I’m worth it to hold in your arms
So come on and give me the chance

To prove I’m the one who can
Walk that mile until the end starts
Come and give me the chance
To prove that I’m the one who can
Walk that mile until the end starts.

A guy told me recently that no matter how much he’s been hurt, he’s still gonna give his all to the next person he falls for whether or not she uses him. He was so positive about the whole thing. And here I was feeling sorry for myself, thinking, I don’t have it in me to do this again. It’s so hard to invest in a relationship then to have it all go down the drain. Well guess what? I’m changing my attitude about the situation. Adele’s song has inspired me to dream and hope once more. I look forward to whoever God sends for me. Whoever that lucky guy is gonna be, I will give him my all, heart body and soul, regardless of the outcome. I will never give up on love again and shame on me for doing so in the first place! lol

 

Beauty of a Woman April 19, 2011

Filed under: Life — sephrahosein @ 21:37

Beauty of a Woman ~~
The beauty of a woman is not in the clothes she wears ,
The figure she carries , or the way she combs her hair.
The beauty of a woman must be seen from her eyes ,
Because that is the doorway to her heart ,
The place where love resides.
The beauty of a woman is not in a facial mole ,
But true beauty in a woman is reflected in her soul.
It is the caring that she lovingly gives ,
The passion that she shows.
The beauty of a woman
With time , only grows..

I don’t know who wrote it… I got it from a forwarded email. I thought I should share it with the world since it’s such a beautiful and true piece. For us women, society has placed such emphasis on outward appearances, so much so that over time we have neglected to nurture our beauty within. And now we are reduced to sending forwarded emails in an attempt to remind ourselves and in some cases, convince ourselves that what really matters is our beauty within  since most of us suffer from low self esteem. I believe once we appreciate ourselves for who we are, then and only then can we truly appreciate others. In doing so, we see the inner beauty of others as it is a reflection of what we hold within. God took the time to create you and me. The beauty of his creation is within our mind and our soul. When we harvest beauty within, it will radiate on the outside. Have you every noticed that evil or bad people are associated with ugliness? I think maybe they’re “ugly” because their “insides” are ugly… Thank you God, for taking the time to make me and Thank You for loving me…

 

Lessons March 15, 2011

Filed under: Life — sephrahosein @ 00:54

Lately I’ve been subject to a lot of trials. These trials have seem to have taken a toll on me, however, I must say that I have learnt a lot about life in the past few months. For instance, I’ve learnt several things about men and why they behave the way they do. I’ve come to accept a lot about them. I’ve learnt that trusting God helps you to pick yourself up from the lowest of lows. Everyday as I battle with my situations, I’ve come to see that keeping a positive attitude can get you through. Holding on to God helps a lot. Regardless of my trials, life is beautiful, and also, there are a lot of people with much greater trials than me. Life, I’m gonna take it by the horns and greet it with a smile!